"Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know"

Cw: 11st 4 (158.8lb)
3lb away from my christmas goal.
Rather than doing my work, which is due tomorrow,
I'm dancing round my room and singing to myself.
In my own little bubble I am the lead in a west end show.
The one every girl aspires to be at least once in her life.
It's put me into high spirits and a good mood.
Just trying to avoid the crash back to reality for a little while longer.
I guess every once in a while it's good to revert back to those childhood fantasys.
I think the christmas modd and happiness has finally struck me :)
Good luck girls.
Bye xx

"If I could find out how, to make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here, with my undying love
And I, I will breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way"

When he writes;
"Hmmm, Girl on the bus was sooo beautiful! :D"
or "Fern Cotton = The Ultimate Girl ;D" as his facebook status
I die a little inside each time I read them.
I'm not that beautiful girl.
And I am no where near as lovely as Fearne Cotton.
On the plus side it motivates me to less of a fat ass.
And to maybe hopefully one day become that girl.
Whether its to him or another guy.
If I get to go out tonight I'd like to dance the night away.
My life really is boring as of late.
I can't wait to be home for christmas.
Bye xx

Oh star fall down on me let me make a wish upon you
Hold on, let me think, thnk of what I'm wishing for
Wait, don't go away. Just not yet.
Cause I thought, I had it. But I forget.

I honestly read all of your blogs,
I just don't know what to comment because so many people say it better than I do.
Sorry girls.
I will try harder in future.
I've been called Hayley Williams and Paramore alot recently.
I guess thats a compliment.
But then again it bugs me that people might think I'm trying to be her.
Really I'm not. I'm just me.
No current weight As my friend visited me the past week.
It was good fun.
Just hope I haven't gained weight.
We now have caffinated tea in our flat.
So I'm going to try and drink that with no milk.
Its low in calories and tastes much nicer than coffee.
At least I think it does :) 
I want to dye my hair a honey blonde.
And then add purple.
The brown looks washed out now and my natural colour looks too summery.
I need a haircut first though.
But I'm too chicken to trust a hairdresser that isn't my usual.
Maybe I should go elsewhere. For a change. But what if they mess up?!
Decisions.
Really need to plan my weekend well and get some work started.
I like the feeling of being busy and organised.
It keeps my mind in chek and I don't over eat.
Fingers crossed I won't be fat for christmas this year.
Good luck to you girls.
Bye xx