“Normal eating is going to the table hungry and eating until you are satisfied.
It is being able to choose food you like and eat it and truly get enough of it - not just stop eating because you think you should.
Normal eating is being able to give some thought to your food selection so you get nutritious food, but not being so wary and restrictive that you miss out on enjoyable food.
Normal eating is giving yourself permission to eat sometimes because you are happy, sad or bored, or just because it feels good.
Normal eating is mostly three meals a day, or four or five, or it can be choosing to munch along the way.
It is leaving some cookies on the plate because you know you can have some again tomorrow, or it is eating more now because they taste so wonderful.
Normal eating is overeating at times, feeling stuffed and uncomfortable.
And it can be undereating at times and wishing you had more.
Normal eating is trusting your body to make up for your mistakes in eating.
Normal eating takes up some of your time and attention, but keeps its place as only one important area of your life.
In short, normal eating is flexible. It varies in response to your hunger, your schedule, your proximity to food and your feelings.”

Thank you healthkicker.
Every once in a while you read an article.
See a picture.
Or read a quote.
And it puts everything back into perspective.
I'm a normal healthy person.
Who ocassionally worries about her weight.
The same as she worries about all other things in her life.
It has reminded me that it's ok to worry.
But you shouldn't let it consume you.
For those reasons I'm going to make November my month.
You should take each day as it comes.
Remember to laugh, smile and cry.
And most of all enjoy what is coming your way.
Cw: 11st 6 (160.8lb)
Hope I can break the 150's by sunday.
Good luck girls.
And remember ...
"To the world you are one person. But to one person you are the world"
Bye xx

P.s. Happy 5th of November.

"To you, the girl in the above picture may not be thinspo, but to me she is.
I have hips, a waist, and quite big boobs. I have curves. I am a young woman.
Therefore I will never be the straight, thin, tiny girls we all adore!"

Seems like 9am starts and breaks surrounded by 'skinny' friends is helping me out.
Still no gain. Yay!
Apparently, if I eat no more than 1000 calories a day.
And continue my 'light' exercise of walking everywhere.
Then by 4th november I could be at my goal of 130lb
Thats all according to losertown.
I'm not sure I fully believe this.
But how good would it feel to be able to go home to my family having lost even more weight.
Also it would be the first christmas I've been skinyy since I was a kid.
Thats pretty motivational stuff.
I'm also looking at old photos.
I really hope I never ever get back to that state.
200+lb is too heavy to be a 17.
Hell 164lb is too heavy at 20 but hey, i'm making progress.
Anyone know of any good exercises that help reduce the fat on the lower part of your stomach?
My waist is looking pretty slim and toned but my stomach.
Erghh its quite wobbley.
I've come to the conclusion though that I'll never really feel confident in a bikini.
I have too many stretchmarks.
And there are body parts that a genetic and will never be as tiny as a models.
Or a girl who stands at only 5" 1.
I do however want to walk around and not have to suck my stomach in so it looks flat everytime I'm near a guy.
Oh how wants and dreams help us towards our goals.
Wow thats quite a big entry.
I think its time to end it.
Good luck girls.
Bye x

"I am finding out that maybe I was wrong.
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone,
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you,
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long."

Seriously, why would he be intersted in me.
Was I stupid to think so?!
We will just have to wait and see.
Conting down the days to university.
So much stuff to organise and pack still.
Spending the rest of the night painting.
And listening to Paramore. Such good thinspo.
Think of how no one famous is fat, or ugly or stuffs their face.
Easy really.
Tomorrow I will have a good sort.
Then shop for the rest of the things I need.
I must look for the best bargains. Plan ahead.
Annnnnd hopefully keep my mind preoccupied away from food.
Bye x